So much for my happy ending, meraung buat kali kedua..
I should have known from the start.. He didn't love me at all.. It was all lies.. All freaking lies.. How could he do this to me? How could he have the heart to do all this to me? He knew that I'm the soft type, why must he crush my heart to bits and pieces? Why can't he be truthful towards me and tell me that he's juz playing around with me? Why give me hope? Why give me false love? Why? Why??
I should have known from the time that he say he can't use his hp anymore.. I believed him when he say he can't use his hp becoz he didn't pay his bills. I believed him when he say he wants to help his aunt paint the house. I believed him when he say he don't have money in his ezlink card to send me home. I freaking believe him all that he said. In the end, all my efforts are wasted on him.. He played me out, he played me out real good.. In my previous post, I was right. He didn't have time for another addition to his life - me. He was too busy with his other friends to be with me. If he was given a choice, he would rather choose his friends rather than me. His friends who nearly destroyed him. I don't know what's up with this freaking guy. One time he was smooching me, the next kicking me out like I was some freaking rubbish.
I went to Siddiq's bbq/chalet yesterday at Costa Sands at Pasir Ris. I went there juz because I wanted to see him coz I haven't seen him for a few days. And guess what, he didn't even greet me! He greeted Nadia who was juz next to me and he freaking ignored me completely like I wasn't there! Pretty obvious ain't it? I gave him some time and waited for him to come to me and said hi but he didn't. He went around the house, half naked doing his own stuff, walked here walked there.. And he didn't even want to see me.. What's more surprising is his friends greeted me.. At that moment, I knew surely there must be something wrong so I went in and tapped his shoulder to ask him out. I waited outside and he didn't came out. Then when I came in again, he was already drunk.. What can I do? He promised me he won't drink on that day but he did. He jolly well did freaking drink and got freaking drunk.. Azhar why did you do this to me? I never scolded u before and I won't scold u even if u want to drink.. Go ahead and drink for all I care but why must u lie to me? Why Azhar??
Then Siddiq call all of us in to sing him Happy birthday and see him cut his cake.. I didn't go in, I stayed at the door instead. After singing, then suddenly Azhar started vomitting coz he drank too much.. At that time, I juz cannot take it anymore and ran away from there to the other corner, sat down and cried out.. He was in such a sorry state and I can't bear to see him like that.. I felt pity for him and my heart goes out to him. But he didn't know that I still cared for him. Farzi was the first to notice me run away, and when he say "What happen Shikin?" I juz broke down and cry my heart out.. He called Nadia over and she consoled me.. She knew what happen and she juz sat there with me..
Our stead is the same as our break up - sudden. So now I know, sudden stead = sudden break up. I don't even know the reason why he broke up with me.. Why must he freaking break up with me? Why? Dear why must u do this to me dear? I miss u a lot, I love u lot, I care u a lot, why must u leave me like that? I hate being left alone like that, I'd rather u break up with me straight up in my face rather than behind my back.. I rela u buang I, tapi kenapa u buang I mcm gini? U are no different from Sofian coz he did the same freaking thing to me and now u also.
My heart is breaking, my mind is whirling around in my head. Why must all the guys do this to me? If u want to play around with me, could u please juz freaking tell me!! I can play around with u too.. No problem on that.. I'm tired of typing now.. I have lots to tell but I'm juz too tired to do it now.
After what Azhar did to me, I promised myself that I won't have anymore boyfriends unless he really really meant it. If I don't get married also, it's fine with me. It's just my luck. Kalau aku tak kahwin pon takpe. Aku lebih rela tak kahwin daripada ditipu oleh jantan2 ni semua..
I should have known from the time that he say he can't use his hp anymore.. I believed him when he say he can't use his hp becoz he didn't pay his bills. I believed him when he say he wants to help his aunt paint the house. I believed him when he say he don't have money in his ezlink card to send me home. I freaking believe him all that he said. In the end, all my efforts are wasted on him.. He played me out, he played me out real good.. In my previous post, I was right. He didn't have time for another addition to his life - me. He was too busy with his other friends to be with me. If he was given a choice, he would rather choose his friends rather than me. His friends who nearly destroyed him. I don't know what's up with this freaking guy. One time he was smooching me, the next kicking me out like I was some freaking rubbish.
I went to Siddiq's bbq/chalet yesterday at Costa Sands at Pasir Ris. I went there juz because I wanted to see him coz I haven't seen him for a few days. And guess what, he didn't even greet me! He greeted Nadia who was juz next to me and he freaking ignored me completely like I wasn't there! Pretty obvious ain't it? I gave him some time and waited for him to come to me and said hi but he didn't. He went around the house, half naked doing his own stuff, walked here walked there.. And he didn't even want to see me.. What's more surprising is his friends greeted me.. At that moment, I knew surely there must be something wrong so I went in and tapped his shoulder to ask him out. I waited outside and he didn't came out. Then when I came in again, he was already drunk.. What can I do? He promised me he won't drink on that day but he did. He jolly well did freaking drink and got freaking drunk.. Azhar why did you do this to me? I never scolded u before and I won't scold u even if u want to drink.. Go ahead and drink for all I care but why must u lie to me? Why Azhar??
Then Siddiq call all of us in to sing him Happy birthday and see him cut his cake.. I didn't go in, I stayed at the door instead. After singing, then suddenly Azhar started vomitting coz he drank too much.. At that time, I juz cannot take it anymore and ran away from there to the other corner, sat down and cried out.. He was in such a sorry state and I can't bear to see him like that.. I felt pity for him and my heart goes out to him. But he didn't know that I still cared for him. Farzi was the first to notice me run away, and when he say "What happen Shikin?" I juz broke down and cry my heart out.. He called Nadia over and she consoled me.. She knew what happen and she juz sat there with me..
Our stead is the same as our break up - sudden. So now I know, sudden stead = sudden break up. I don't even know the reason why he broke up with me.. Why must he freaking break up with me? Why? Dear why must u do this to me dear? I miss u a lot, I love u lot, I care u a lot, why must u leave me like that? I hate being left alone like that, I'd rather u break up with me straight up in my face rather than behind my back.. I rela u buang I, tapi kenapa u buang I mcm gini? U are no different from Sofian coz he did the same freaking thing to me and now u also.
My heart is breaking, my mind is whirling around in my head. Why must all the guys do this to me? If u want to play around with me, could u please juz freaking tell me!! I can play around with u too.. No problem on that.. I'm tired of typing now.. I have lots to tell but I'm juz too tired to do it now.
After what Azhar did to me, I promised myself that I won't have anymore boyfriends unless he really really meant it. If I don't get married also, it's fine with me. It's just my luck. Kalau aku tak kahwin pon takpe. Aku lebih rela tak kahwin daripada ditipu oleh jantan2 ni semua..
posted by Nurashikin at 1:06 PM
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