Selamat Hari Raya!

Today is the 2nd day of Hari Raya and it turns out to be a more tiring day compared to yesterday.. Me and my family went to only 3 houses yesterday: my grandma's house in the morning, granpa's house in the afternoon and my uncle's house in the evening.. So yesterday wasn't so bad..

I still get some green packets though, mostly from my grandparents and uncles and aunties.. At 1st they say, I working already cannot get money, but then they say never mind lah as long as I haven't yet married they still give.. It was fun going out Raya together.. We move around visiting relatives in 4 cars! Just imagine the number of people we had.. But I guess my youngest sis and her nieces & nephews enjoyed Raya the most.. Since there were 4 cars, they get to change cars everytime we wanted to go to another house.. How nice it will be if I were given the chance to be a kid again.. I would have a lot of fun playing and not having a care about anything at all.. I wouldn't have to think about "grown up" things then..

Oh well, back to topic.. Oh ya, today was a tired day.. We went out at 11am and came back at 10pm.. I think we went to about 5-6 houses or so.. I'm not sure but I do know that in every house I went to, I get to catch forty winks for a while.. Don't know why I feel so tired.. Haiz, and I have to go back to work tomorrow! Morning shift some more.. Hmm, still thinking whether to go work or to take mc.. hehe.. ok lah nothing much happened so there's really nothing much to tell.. Anyway, I feel sleepy already, gonna go to bed now.. BYE!!

Thinking about Sofian..

I juz finish looking at my fren's blog (Nadia) and I must say that it's a nice little cosy place.. And as I started reading through her articles, she sure got a lot of pics in there.. and as they say, a picture's worth a thousand words.. From those pics, I can tell that she's a very happy gal coz she got a lot of frens who are close to her and furthermore she even have a loving boyfren.. I envy her.. Not jealous, just plain envy..

Well, I too used to have a boyfren.. Yeah, used to. We broke up just last month and I got to admit I still keep thinking about him and I miss him a lot, damn a lot.. Why he suddenly left me, that's still the question.. Till this day, I don't know why.. I had a very memorable time when I was with him though..

I remembered our 1st month anniversary.. What we did, where we went, what we ate, eveything.. Everything is still fresh in my mind, like it happened juz yesterday.. I finished work at 6pm that day and he came to my workplace to pick me up. By the way, we worked at the same place so I get to see him everyday.. And then, I had basic theory test for my driving lesson at Comfort Centre.. He waited 1 hour for me there without even complaining anything.. At around 8pm, as we were walking back to Eunos mrt, he asked me where I want to go to eat.. I said any place is fine with me but he said since it's our anniversary he wanted to bring me to a special place.. And guess what, he chose Swensens.. I was quite surprised he chose that place coz I know that place is a tad expensive for me.. I really dun mind if we juz went to a kopitiam or something like that.. But he insisted on bringing me to Swensens.. He said, "Alah sayang, nari kan anniversary kita.. Mestilah I nak bawak you kat tempat special.." And so we settled on the Swensens beside Tampines mrt.. It was my first and only time going to Swensens and it's such a nice feeling having someone bringing you to a place like that on a special occasion.. I ordered fish & chips and he ordered baked pasta or rice, I'm not sure.. And he ordered a lot of other things too including desserts.. And the whole bill came up to $65.00! That's quite steep isn't it? I wanted to offer to pay half but he said never mind he can settle it.. After eating, he sent me home right up to my lift void deck.. We say our goodbyes and he kissed me on both cheeks.. I tell you it's like heaven getting a kiss from him.. Sighs.. I miss him very very much..

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME ALONE DAMNIT?!

I was with him for only 2 1/2 months.. Others might think that it's a short while, I can easily forget him.. Well, they are very wrong.. I still think about him and I still like him.. Maybe I've lost my love for him but if he were to come back to me, I can love him again.. There's something about this guy that I juz can't forget.. He's not my 1st boyfren anyway.. Usually, when I broke up with a guy, I could forget him and get on with my life and find another.. But not with this guy.. I don't know why either.. What is it that makes me so attracted to him anyway? Probably because he's the only guy who made the effort to make me happy everytime we're together and at least he tried to love me.. I know he loved me once, if he didn't he wouldn't even want to be with me in the 1st place.. Or is it because he's juz way too cute for me that I can't resist him..? Hmm.. but come to think of it he's not that cute anyway.. I don't know.. Maybe because of the wonderful memories that we shared, that's why I miss him very much and I can't forget him.. To make things worse, I have to see him everyday because we worked at the same place.. I have to pass by his department to go down to my department via the cargo lift.. Now u tell me how can I forget him..?

Now we didn't talk to each other anymore and that makes me feel worse.. It's not that I don't wanna talk to him, it's him who don't wanna talk to me.. Either it's because he feel guilty leaving me like that or he simply had a change of heart and doesn't love me anymore.. It's amazing how some people can change their feelings overnight huh.. Ok enough of talking about him.. The more I talk, the more I will think of him.. I'll go get some rest and try not to think of him too much or else I'll go crazy.. literally..

a song for Sofian..

This song is dedicated to my ex guy, Sofian, if he ever tumbled across this page..
This is for you dear..

Meraung - Newboyz

Menggigil tubuh ini
Melihat kau bersamanya
Tergamam aku tak terkata
Meraung di jiwa

Puas ku pertahankan
Cinta kita sejak dulu
Tapi sayang
Sikit pun tidak
Menghargai cintaku

( korus )
Sia-sia saja
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaanku ini
Ku sangka kau permata
Rupanya duri paling berbisa

Ku pasrah dan berdoa
Semoga tabah jiwaku
Oh... tetapi bagaimana
Nak ku bawa
Jiwa yang siksa

Ke mana arah hendak ku tuju
Bila hatiku rindu padamu
Hendakku cari tapi tak guna
Kau bahagia dengan si dia

Dikamar sepi aku termenung
Terbayang bayang kenangan kita
Tidak ku sangka kau
Tergamak pergi
Saat ku masih perlukan mu

( ulang korus )

Ah...ah...ah...
Ah...ah...ah...

Meraung di jiwa
Apalah daya kiranya
Orang dah benci

Ah...ah...ah...
Ah...ah...ah...

Meraung di jiwa
Tapi tak pernah ku benci
Dirimu sayang


Just so u know dear, I never hated u..
In fact I still love you..

random ramblings...

How do you like my layout? Pretty ain't it?
I love this guy man.. He look so sexy... hehe.. never thought a pirate could be this sexy.. I love his eyes, can't stop staring at them..

Oh well... So much for my fantasy..

Since it's the 1st time I'm blogging, might as well intro myself here..
Aite here goes..
name Shikin
how old 21
working Carrefour Singapore
likes guys.. hehe obviously.. surfing Net, music, boybands...
luvs Backstreet Boys, Nickolas Carter, Johnny Depp haha.. in my dream world again..

I don't know what else to say so as time goes by, u'll get to know more about me..

I'm not good at writing things up coz I don't have anything to write about.. Hmm mayb when I have material, I'll write it down aite...